Marilyn Manson's long-time bassist, Twiggy Ramirez has been accused of rape by his ex-girlfriend and Jessicka Addams.
Addams, who is also the lead singer of the band Jack Off Jill – took Facebook to share some intense details.
The singer wrote that she and Ramirez (born Jeordie White) were linke in the 1990s — when she was 18 — that became physically violent in the following months and years. She detailed a pattern of abuse that began with jealousy and escalated into White allegedly hitting her repeatedly.
While on tour break, the musician allegedly visited Addams at a friend’s apartment. “He forced me on to the floor with his hand around my neck,” she wrote. “I said NO. I said NO.
“I said it so loud enough, that [the friend] came rushing in from the other room to get him off of me. But I had been raped. I had been raped by somebody I thought I loved.”
Addams revealed the reason she didn't go public with her experience earlier due to the fact that she was afraid her band would be hindered and perhaps rejected by “concert promoters, radio programmers, and other bands and their managers”.
“The label blatantly feared the big machine behind Marilyn Manson would use their power to destroy not only Jack Off Jill, but my name, Jessicka, as well,” she added.
“The pressure and guilt of the inevitable repercussions of my rape story affecting my band’s livelihood, happiness and success kept me silent for years.”
This article originally appeared on WHO.