“I remember having that universal thought: ‘Will I be any good at this?’” She writes.
“In the first few weeks I didn’t want to be left alone with you. I was paranoid that somehow I would accidentally kill you. That I would drop you, or that an eagle would swoop down and steal you or that an intruder would kidnap you or that you would die in your sleep.
“Reading that now it sounds awfully macabre but at the time those thoughts were all very real to me.”
She goes to praise her husband, Michael Hoskin for being a wonderful support through everything.
“Your Dad was so bloody capable and perfect in those first few weeks,” she shares.
“And to be honest, I was a bit jealous. Michael was always so unruffled and sure of himself.”
Of course, she admits that while the lack of sleep and Hakavai’s relentless energy wasn’t always easy in the first few months, she wouldn’t have it any other way.
“I found it magical. Joyous. Love-filled. Giving. Unimaginably fun. Granted, I have a supportive partner in your Dad,” she admits.
“Being your mother has changed me irrevocably. My priorities have shifted. I’m no longer the centre of my universe.”