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Tammin Sursok shares an incredible throwback photo with message to her younger self

The Hollywood success story shares empowering message - by Matthew Denby
  • 25 Apr 2019

Aussie TV star Tammin Sursock has shared a moving message about the struggles with bulling and body image she faced as a 13-year-old girl.

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Taking to Instagram, Tammin posted a smiling photograph of herself aged 13, and wrote an extended caption capturing that pain that hid behind that smile – the pain of a child who was relentlessly bullied by her peers, and the self-doubt that flowed from that relentless abuse.

Tammin, who has previously told New Idea that at the age of 14 she weighed 95kg, transformed herself inside and out in the wake of the bullying. But despite her weight loss, she cannot forget the cruelty of what other kids said and did to her.

The Pretty Little Liars star revealed the depth of her torment in a letter to her younger self, writing on Instagram of a scarring experience at a swimming pool.

‘Hi, It’s me, your future self, I’m standing on the sideline looking back at your ripe, fleshy, hopeful face and I know what happens when the arm of the clock aggressively hits its top pinnacle,’ she wrote.

‘The boy standing in front of you will break you. He will break your heart in ways you never thought possible. He will embarrass you as you feel the stares of awkward pre=pubescent males all stifling a hearty laugh.

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Dear 13 Year Old Tammin, Hi, It's me, your future self, I'm standing on the sideline looking back at your ripe, fleshy, hopeful face and I know what happens when the arm of the clock aggressively hits its top pinnacle. The boy standing in front of you will break you. He will break your heart in ways you never thought possible. He will embarrass you as you feel the stares of awkward pre pubescent males all stifling a hearty laugh. You will feel the chambers of your heart beat out of your chest as the blood dizzies around every cell of your body. For what you were waiting for, what keeps you up each night in desperate, feverish anticipation, is not the what the boy in front of you feels. Not only does he not have any giddy interest in you, but he will verbalize in front of everyone that you are indeed "FAT" and after he miniaturizes you, he will parade away. And you will feel like the stage lights just blasted and you are standing upon a stage, naked, in all your quarter pounder glory. I can see you right now. The white cotton in your purple swimsuit stretches and moans as you fight to get it over your shoulders. You'd do anything to never swim again. You watch the unblemished swim team glide past, their bodies, as if carved out of medieval stone, fly like gazelles diving into the frigid water. Now it's your turn. The room is deafening. The faces around you start to blur and decolor as you feel like you are a passenger on your own haunted hayride, that is your life. You dive. Well, you try. You try to dive. Your body can't propel you high enough so you falter, you slip and you fall. Hitting the water so hard that you feel like your body has been stung by a team of the Hamilton island jelly fish. As you come up for disorientated air, all you hear, is the muffled chuckles and with all eyes on you, you have become the punchline, once again. I see that girl. She will spend your school years antagonizing you, she will make it her duty to beat you down, trying to suck from a straw any self respect you might have. Distracting herself will deflect the self loathing she feels for herself but you wont know that just yet. Not only (continued in the comments)

‘Not only does he not have any giddy interest in you, but he will verbalize in front of everyone that you are indeed “FAT” and after he miniaturizes you, he will parade away.
‘I see that girl. She will spend your school years antagonizing you, she will make it her duty to beat you down, trying to suck from a straw any self respect you might have.

‘Not only will she steal your first real love, but she will celebrate it.

'But one day things will change. You will change.’

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This time last year I was sitting in church on Easter after my last (unbeknownst to me) miscarriage praying so hard for another child and feeling defeated. That was exactly one year ago today. Prayer can be answered. Never give up. There is always hope. Happy Easter to you and your family. We love you ❤️

Tammin has since gone on to amazing success in the acting industry, and is a mother of two. Although her weight loss was a big part of her transformation, Tammin stresses it wasn’t about giving in to bullying, but about health and discipline and being the person she wanted to be.

‘You body will change,’ she writes, ‘not because you are mimicking perfection, but because you will regard it as a vessel that needs to be treated with respect.

‘I want you to know that you will be more than okay.’

Matthew Denby
Matthew is Executive Editor - Digital (Entertainment & Family) at Pacific Magazines

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