‘Everyday I woke up with a dead feeling inside of me.’ Nadya revealed to Star. ‘I was disgusted with myself and I didn’t want to live.’
Nadya admitted to the publication that it was a foolish decision to have the embryos from her ex-husband, Marco Guiterrez, implanted.
‘I didn’t think through the consequences.’
Already struggling to look after her 6 older children, the publication claims that Nadya was desperate for cash to provide for her 14 kids. As a result, she made an adult film and began stripping in men’s clubs.
‘I did those things because I was terrified I couldn’t support my children and give them the life they deserved,’ she said.
Nadya began using a prescription tranquilizer benzodiazepine and mixing it with alcohol, claims Star. But, a gentleman from the strip club made her see that there was another way.
‘That’s when I knew I had to be my healthy self again. I didn’t want my kids not to have a mum,’ she reveals.
Nadya is currently living in California with her 14 children and working as a substance abuse counselor and working on a memoir. ‘I had to keep pressing forward despite all the pain and suffering, but I found a strength I didn’t even know I had.’