Cassie and Ryan appeared on season one of Seven Year Switch, a reality series where couples at relationship crossroads participate in an innovative experiment of switch therapy. Now, the couple have given a candid interview about their personal family struggles.
The mum-of-four has been open about losing her son Dex to stillbirth and on Thursday penned an emotional post alongside touching photos on what would have been his fifth birthday.
The post reads, ‘The love, the memories, the moments, the life shattering heart ache… I feel like I could scream, i feel like I could breakdown at any moment, I miss you.. terribly, I wish I could watch you grow and become a man, fall in love, get married, be successful at anything you desire, have babies… To touch you again, to hold you in my arms, to kiss your soft silky cheeks, run my fingers through your black curls, to touch your nose, to hear your breath, to hear you cry, to bath you, to nurture you, to fall asleep with you, to wake up to you… not a day goes by that I don’t feel all of this.’
It continues, ‘The pain is immeasurable, it breaks me, I try to disconnect but sometimes it overtakes me, a piece of me went with you on this day 5 years ago. I should be celebrating with you, singing happy birthday, watching the excitement in your face, I try to be happy, I try to make if fun but I miss you, I miss you more than words could ever explain, I wish it was different, I wish I could have saved you, I wish you were here today. It will never get easier, 1 year 2 years 10 years it’s only time, a broken heart doesn’t just disappear, I can’t turn off the pain and emptiness, every year will have its milestone… in a few months you should be starting your first year of school. It’s all been taken away… and there’s is absolutely nothing I can do to change it and it kills me a little more each day.’
Cassie finishes the post saying, ‘Happy 5th Birthday to you my gorgeous Son. Another year closer to being with you again. I love you, stay close. Love Mama xxxxx’
Her followers offered their love and heartfelt messages of support on what is a difficult day for the family.
During their time on the show Cassie and Ryan opened up about their relationship and revealed they lost Dex when she was 37.5 weeks pregnant three years earlier.
Their terrible experience made the news that they were expecting another baby, while appearing on the show, even sweeter.
In June last year they welcomed their rainbow baby, a baby girl named Mena Lee, who has been showered with love from big sisters Emmerson and Ramani.