A mother of six has told how she regretted giving birth to twins after falling pregnant “by mistake” and wished she’d had a termination instead.
In a revelation that will shock many, Jeanne Measom says she was shocked when a pregnancy test returned positive in 2008. She and husband Guy already had four children.
She said: ‘I turned to Guy and demanded just how he thought we could cope with five children.’
She says her first thought was to terminate but she realised she couldn’t go through with it.
But when they went for the 20-week scan she was shocked by what she discovered. The sonographer told her and Guy there were two babies.
‘I was so shocked that I burst into tears,’ she recalls. ‘Guy started to laugh. I’d just got my head round having five children - but six?’
Jeanne cried for weeks and says she hoped the babies were girls because she already had three sons and only one daughter. But both babies were identical boys. Jude and Rowan were both born healthy but Jeanne failed to bond with them.
With piercing honesty, she reveals: ‘Instead of the warm fuzzy feeling of love and pride I’d felt with my other children regret burnt inside me.’
When the twins were one, Jeanne hit rock bottom while out in the car.
‘Staring at them in the rear-view mirror dark thoughts rushed through my mind: I could give them up for adoption, or I could kill us all …'
Looking back, Jeanne knows she needed help and the turning point came when she enrolled the four youngest into a creche for a few hours a week. She now has no problems with her much-loved kids, whom she adores.
As she says: ‘Rowan and Jude are eight now. I love them - of course I do. But there were days when they were younger that I honestly regretted having them.’
She advises parents of multiple births to get help from the second they arrive.