Pictures of Ohio mum of three Emily Muelle went viral back in August when she posed 20,000 bees on her stomach, and now the heartbroken mum has taken to Facebook to share her tragic news.
“Yesterday evening we had to hand over our precious child and say goodbye to his physical body forever,” she wrote, adding that she and husband, Ryan Mueller, 37, named their late son Emersyn Jacob.
“Our baby has died. Our baby will never come home with us,” she continued. “This wonderful rainbow baby we were blessed with has now become a storm in our lives.
“Finding out your baby died is unfathomable. Learning you have to be induced and deliver your deceased child is way beyond that. My heart instantly ached for any woman that has told me she had a stillborn.”
Emily became concerned about her baby one morning when she noticed she wasn’t able to feel it moving.
“By evening I began to realize I had not felt baby move much and had contractions that felt different than any I have had before,” she wrote. “I just told myself he was sleeping but as the time passed, I felt uneasy about it.”
She and her husband decided to go to the hospital to check for a heartbeat, and sadly learned that their son had died just days before the due date.
“I truly thought we would be sent home with a smile, telling us to just wait for the arrival of our sweet Emersyn, who was due in 6 days,” she wrote.
“I can’t and don’t want to explain that feeling to anyone. Turning to your husband and seeing him die inside. Seeing him completely break. Seeing your children feel and suffer your pain in front of your eyes. The pain is unbearable.”
Emily revealed that she first got into beekeeping as a way to cope after suffering several miscarriages.
“Bees represent the beginning of new life and after my second miscarriage, I needed a new release,” she told People. “I connected with the bees and it helped take my mind off of other hardships that were surrounding me at the time, some people do yoga… I do bees.”
“I’ve never responded poorly to stings, so I felt comfortable doing this,” she said. “Everyone I asked said there’s no research to show how a bee sting affects a fetus.”
“I have a very strong feeling that this was a blood clotting issue as those traits have been affecting our immediate family for some time,” she wrote.
There that the stillbirth was in any way related to Emily’s photoshoot.