Star of Married At First Sight, Simone Brennan, has taken to her dating blog to reveal the "truth" behind her short-lived marriage to fellow contestant Xavier Forstberg.
The 30-year-old who first appeared on the second season of the dating reality show met and wed onscreen husband Xavier, before dumping him on the season finale. Now, the makeup artist has revealed what really went on behind-the-scenes of her "doomed" marriage.
"To cut a five-week ‘love’ story short: It became very clear early on in the piece that the ‘marriage’ to my TV husband was doomed. Destined to fail. Crash and burn. I know – shut the front door. Here’s the cold hard truth. Every reality ‘TV star’ has their own reasons for wanting to put themselves out into the public eye. Of course, each to their own. For me, though, when I received the phone call to say my perfect match had been found, after six months of filling in tedious questionnaires, I honestly thought that my single days were over.
"It’s quite unfortunate for all of those involved – you, me, my family and friends, but especially me because I am the bride. We all held such high hopes for my love life, and single lady parts. Truth be told, my TV husband did not don a tux for love, or my single lady parts, despite sweating like a gypsy with a mortgage while waiting for me at the altar."
According to Simone, things went from bad to worse quite quickly. "Once filming wrapped, I was more than over it. I was over the forced conversations that ended abruptly when the cameras switched off. I was over the staged dinners, literally, set-up by producers only to have to pretend my TV husband had done them himself #ohyoushouldnthave I was over overhearing his one-on-one interviews in the next room where he expressed his ‘growing’ feelings for me #vomit I was over being asked if I was in love yet. I was over being asked if I consider being taken to a soccer match romantic. Welllll, obviously not. I was over doing all the grocery shopping and cooking dinner for two. Every. Single. Night. But more than anything, I was over feeling like I wasn’t good enough. I was emotionally exhausted."
Sharing her story with viewers of the show, Simone ended her tell-all blog with a series of self-reflective questions.
"So, what is the point of me sharing all of this with you now, just as I’ve erased all remnants of his blow-drying technique from my memory?" she asks.
"My point is this, hope you’re taking mental notes:
Never stay in a relationship if you feel the need to convince the person to be with you. You should never have to persuade someone that you are worthy of their time.
Never stay in a relationship if you begin to question your self-worth. You should never feel like you’re not good enough.
Never stay in a relationship merely because you can’t handle the thought of having to wait around for the real deal. You should never feel the need to wonder, what if?"