Patrick Swayze’s widow Lisa Niemi has opened up about her struggles after losing the Dirty Dancing actor to pancreatic cancer seven years ago.
Writing an emotional post on her blog, Lisa says that her inability to save her husband has left her feeling scared and vulnerable.
‘I tried so hard to save him,’ says the former dancer. ‘And it was hard for me to accept that, ultimately, this life is something I can’t control… Suddenly, the world is not a very safe place, and seems to be so without rhyme or reason.’
Lisa says the days following his death were the hardest.
‘I thought I was pretty fearless until Patrick/my ”Buddy” died,’ she writes. ‘Then, I found out how much I had always felt protected by him. I suddenly was in crippling grief and had to take care of myself. And I found all these fears springing up. But now, I was alone, and in a position where I couldn’t afford to meltdown. I had no one to depend on, but me.’
Having gone on to find happiness with her new husband, jeweller Albert DePrisco, Lisa says she is slowly finding her inner strength.
‘I never wanted to have to be this strong. Face so many difficult obstacles. But . . . maybe life is asking me to step up to the plate. Maybe it’s asking me to be everything Buddy already believed I was,’ she says. ‘No doubt. It’s still hard, but I am getting stronger, braver, and wiser.’